Carlos Motta, Artist

When I Leave This World (with Tiamat Legion Medusa)

installation view at OCDCHINATOWN, New York. Photos by Jason Mandella

When I Leave This World is a two-channel video installation that centers the life and work of performance and body-modification artist Tiamat Legion Medusa, with artist Carlos Motta as collaborator and interlocutor. Adopting the names of mythological monsters and the pronouns it/its, Tiamat Legion Medusa simultaneously transitioned from male to female and from human to reptile; its ultimate goal is to transform into a dragon. The complementary pair of videos present Medusa’s inner and outer worlds, combining to form a double portrait.

Lending its title to the work, When I Leave This World (2022, 10 minutes) records one of Medusa’s suspension performances, set to an original soundtrack by DJ and sound artist ELO. Two assistants in black rubber gloves carefully pierce its chest, stomach, and legs with hooks, its shimmering skin occasionally twitching in expectation. Ropes are threaded through the hooks and pulled taut, lifting the horizontal body. Slowly rotating in space, Medusa is joined by Motta in Shibari rope bondage, hanging upright with arms outstretched as if on a crucifix. Two traditions of suspension are dramatically juxtaposed in a tableau of transgressive geometry.

In Tiamat Legion Medusa (2022, 26 minutes), the artist talks about its childhood experiences of abandonment and assault, which led to the desire to change species. “I don’t want to die looking like a human being when I leave this world,” Medusa says, describing its physical metamorphosis as a “protest at humanity.” As it recounts its life story and details its transitions, the video is intercut with images of its drawings and old family photographs, foregrounding Medusa’s immaterial voice. Nevertheless, its concept of self remains resolutely embodied.

This artistic collaboration continues Motta’s investigations into queer counter-histories, uncovering and visualizing marginalized narratives that resist heteronormative hegemony. Yet it also moves beyond the archival past to embrace a potential posthuman future. If political discourse dehumanizes those the State would imprison, conquer, or kill, then the recognition and valuation of difference has long been understood as a process of humanization. Medusa’s monstrous metamorphosis rejects these terms, pushing alterity beyond the assumption of common humanity.


Video 1: When I Leave This World
A performance video by Carlos Motta in collaboration with Tiamat Legion Medusa

Director of Photography
Moira Morel

Original Soundtrack

Karla Legaspy

Suspension by hooks
Steve Joyner – CoRE — Constructs of Ritual Evolution
Dustin Schultz

Captain Daddy Sir
Oji Pan

Makeup Artist
Michael Mejia

Second Camera
Arlene Muller

Camera Assistants
Lauren Arthur
Kelsey Juddo
Jaclyn Vresics

Antoine Combelles

Key Grip
Darren H. Rae

Location Sound
Mario Torres

Pollution Studios, Los Angeles

Video 2: Tiamat Legion Medusa
A video by Carlos Motta

Director of Photography
Marie Ketring

Drawings and Photographs
Tiamat Legion Medusa

Design and Animation
Lauryn Siegel

Camera Assistant
Samantha Duncan

Location Sound
Corey G. McMinn

Sound Mix
Ian Turner